Tuesday, June 23, 2009

End Of the Road!!!

With everything I have been going through the past 2 almost 3 years, my motivation for treatment is really starting to fade. I feel like I am at the end of the road, with no turn off for help visible. I hate telling people, "I don't work. I'm on disability." Telling people why is the hardest... "Oh it is just a headache" is the response I get ALL THE TIME! Ummm, actually no. It isn't JUST A HEADACHE!!!! They never seem to realize that and think I am just using the system.


I don't know whats wrong with me. I guess I am just still overwhelmed, and under appreciated. I'm scared most of all that I'll have to live with this condition for the rest of my life with no help in sight. I feel like I'll be in constant pain for many years to come...

So I guess this is just another bump in my long road, I'll get over it. I know so! :) Until next tuesday.....

Friday, June 19, 2009

Exercise Me

Well its official! I have finally gotten my butt into gear, and finally started an exercise regime. I am so excited!!! I'll be blunt, I am not skinny by any means. I am a big girl and always have been for as long as I can remember. I don't think I am obese, but yet I've got a few extra pounds. I am almost 5 foot 9, and a size 16. You get my drift now...

Like I have stated before, I recently moved at the end of March. With this fabulous new apartment, I have the access to an in ground pool. Well, that it just heavenly to me!! ok, ok, back on track here.... I have been swimming my little heart out, every day that it gets over 70 degrees. (also the water temperature has something to do with it too!) I basically get out all of my frustrations, and do laps. Its something I have never pictured my self doing! But somehow I just DO it!

The best part is (other than already loosing 10 pounds!) is that I FEEL better! I haven't had a "horrible" headache in 2 weeks! Who would've thought that taking my Doctor's advice, and getting my butt into gear would pay off?? I'm kidding...

Also the other good news is that I have been prescribed Oxygen, and it has been FANTASTIC!!! It really seems to help, and that amazes me. The only issue I see is that I have to catch the pain within the first 2 to 3 minutes. If I do the pain will go away after 15-20 minutes of Oxygen inhalation. If I don't I am in trouble. The pain wont go away, and I am up a creek without a paddle.